There are a few seconds...( maybe even a whole minute) in the morning when I feel nothing.
I feel floaty
I feel calm
I feel no pain.
I lay there without moving a muscle ....simply aware of my breathing.
I'm not hot or cold
I feel just right.
My shoulders don't ache from arthritis
My displaced muscles (where I had my mastectomy years ago) don't hurt.
My back doesn't twitch and twist
My head doesn't pound.
I feel nothing.
and it is in that moment that I realize...
There was a time when I felt just like this....floaty and pain free...all the time.
For about a minute this morning I felt this.
I felt that maybe just maybe...my body would forget its battle scars and let me be ME again.
But as the seconds ticked by my body remembered, and gave into the twinges and pulls.
I thanked her for the memories and moved to start my day.