Today is the day. Today we find out if my mother’s cancer has spread or not. If it has not then she will be able to take a chemo pill to help stop the cancer from coming back. If there is cancer …the doctor feels that she cannot tolerate treatment. He said “She is so frail that she’d end up in the hospital if she is put on treatment” . I find that statement odd. So the alternative is let her die?
When my mother was resistant to going ahead with earlier medical intervention, a friend told me…”maybe she just wants to die”. That was not the case. She was scared….And in denial. She wants to live the amount that God wants her to live, not the amount that cancer chooses. Her life is worth saving. Even if she is 87.
I am scared.
She has been through so much.
And now this.
I don’t want her to be in pain till her last breath.
Cancer is evil
It is not God given
It's a thief
It's a destroyer
It's a heart wrenching bastard and I hate him.
I HATE HIM
So today I’ll walk into that Oncology appt with my mom. I promised her that I will be with her every step of the way….every step.
Good news or bad…Mom, I’ll be right beside you…the same way you have always been there for me.
Sending you strength and courage as you face this challenging day. Your love and support for your mother shine through every word. Regardless of the outcome, your promise to be by her side every step of the way is a powerful testament to the bond you share. Cancer is indeed a formidable foe, and your determination to stand against it echoes the love and resilience within your heart. Wishing for strength, comfort, and the best possible news for your mother. https://www.melodyjacob.com/2024/01/sulina-shop-facial-uplifting-oil-review.html
ReplyDeleteIt has been almost 8 months since you posted this - I do hope your mom is still with you. I can understand her fear. I lost my mom in June - it is a very sad time. Hugs to you, my friend.
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