Soooo, Um....Yep

 

                    So, Um... yep......

For months I've tried and thats all I come up with. I've had nothing to write.

This is because so many trying, stressful, sad and disappointing things have happened.

The Disease ..(of which I shall not be named...I'm following Harry Potter's lead) Has cause, devastation, havoc, hatred, turmoil and fear.

We have all lost someone or something.

And when it came to this tiny insignificant blog...I lost my fire for writing.

I just couldn't find anything happy to write about.

I kept waiting for the joy to come back.

Where are you joy?

                                             

I waited 

     I waited after my friend died

         I prayed joy for others 

     I reminisced as I struggled to accept the death of dear friend's beautiful son.

      I struggled to remember it as I now take care of my elderly Mom.

     Plans have changed for everyone. It's like we're all holding our breath.

Days ago I came to a desicion.

I was not going to wait for joy to knock on my door like a long lost friend.

I was going to find Joy...right where I am.

I was going to find it everyday, anywhere.

Joy may be small, and a struggle to find...as she likes to play hide and seek lately.

I've been tagged "it" (no relations to that scary clown guy)

.....and I will find her.

Today, My joy came from waking up to find that my sink was spotless.

I have been struggling with keeping up on my household and inevitably dishes were left in the sink.

Not today.

Last night I pushed through the weariness I felt and shined that sink like the "Fly Lady" suggests. It was a great feeling.

There, That was a great start.

I know it may not seem like much...but it brought a smile to my face and just writing about it makes me feel good too.

Hey, there might be something to this....

I'm not going to stress out about the "have to's" today. You know what I mean..."The have to's" are all the things we all have to do. I will not dread them. I will instead turn them into me blessing my Mom, my kids and husband.

and when I do that...I feel blessed too.

Where have you found Joy today? Go find her....you're "it"

                                        

It's Friday... But Sunday's a Coming!

                

                         

It's Going to Be OK

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                   It's going to be Ok.

     I know how you are feeling, because I am feeling the same way too.

It's the Eve of the Presidential election and almost everyone feels....

 Anxious

         Angry 

                Depressed

                          Doubtful

                                    Weary

                                         

 Its hard to get a handle on what has happened this past year. 

While I was grocery shopping today looked around and suddenly realized what has now become "normal". Everyone was wearing a mask and it was Normal. I had forgotten I had one on. 

I watch the news for a few minutes each day and I turn it off. I want to shout at the top of my lungs "STOP!!!"

Can't we just stop?!

But would anyone listen?

I pray and beg God "please".

But I am just me and God is God and HE knows the plan and outcome of all this chaos. 

So tomorrow I will exercise my right to vote and I will accept and respect whoever becomes the leader of my beautiful country, We are bruised and battered but we will continue...God willing. 

The first line to my post was "It's going to be OK"

Sometimes we have to just keep repeating that to comfort others and ourselves. I say it because I need to believe it. 

It will be true. 

I virtually hold each and every one of you who may need that hug and assurance and pray along with you.

              AMEN

Weekend Away

 

                     So last weekend we went "camping" (Is it considered camping if you're in a cabin?) with some church family. This is our third time with them and our hundredth time in our happy place in upstate New York.  It was sooooooo needed. I had no idea how much I needed to get away. We were away from TV, internet and all negative distractions. 

In the morning the lake was covered in a misty veil (of which I forgot to take a picture). I stood there in silent awe as if I had never seen it before. Every year the lake touches my heart with its beauty.

We visited just a few weeks before the trees would burst with color. Summer was hanging on by a thread and the Autumn cool would nudge its way in at night.

We laughed and played silly games during the day. The men took over the grilling. We had SIX grills!

Dinner Menu

Thursday

Thick steaks, Spanish rice, salad

Friday

Smoked ribs, potatoes, fresh homemade coleslaw

Saturday

Adobo Chicken, Jasmine white rice, Grilled Pork Butt Steaks sliced thin

needless to say we ate very very well.

We played Christian Music and then switched to 60's and 70's too. I was surprised at how familiar all the kids were with our "Oldies songs". 

At night as we sat around the fire cooking our "schmoes" (smores, but I like saying it the "TOY Story" way) We played silly pranks, and retold hysterical stories. lastly we said our sleepy "goodnights". I was sad to see yet another day end, but as much as I tried I could not make it last longer.

Before we knew it the weekend ended and the sad pack-up began early on the last day. I went into town early for some fresh bagels for breakfast...no cooking, greasy clean-up or waiting for grills to cool down. We sat down to an assortment of bagels and cream cheese and butter, fruit, coffee cake, orange juice and apple danishes.

We gave hugs and lingered in the beautiful surroundings til it was almost silly considering we all live within minutes of each other!!!

Goodbye Lake, see you again soon

Just a Thought

    

                   Strange times we are living in.

                         Pandemic

                            violence

                                Hate

                                   Fires

                                      Floods

                                         Death to our bodies

                                             Death to our Humanity

                                                 Death to our very souls

                        

                                                        source

         ...and what is left?

     What is left after all that? 

             

     What is there after being stripped, and left with raw skin and heart exposed.

In the swirling darkness of sadness and despair, hate, fear and despondency...There is a NOTHING that swallows us and destroys us until we're part of that swirling seething emptiness.

I have to keep reminding myself...

                       There is HOPE

                          There is healing

                            There is Kindness

                                There is LOVE

                                    There is disagreement without Violence

                                        There is beauty

                                            There is God

   And once we can seek and see and feel that

             Then those who would rather we hate and hurt will have no power

                       and maybe we can heal, forgive, and start again.

                      

                                                             source

               we can put down that stone and dare not cross that line.

                        and we can encourage others to do the same

                                      God please help us

                                         It can be done

                                            Let us try