In The Pink

     
              I have to admit something to you all.



                                    I hated October.




       It's not because the weather get cooler ( even though it is a drag) It's because every October there is a deluge of pink ribbons.
                                               
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                     October is Breast Cancer Awareness month.




 I should love October. Having those pink ribbons everywhere saves lives, but it also reminds me and reminds me and reminds me. 
                                                        
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It seems I'm drowning in the recollection of one of the worst times in my life and my family's life. I can't get away from it.


The fear of cancer returning sometimes grabs hold and seems to sit right on my chest like an anchor.  Last year I tried to pretend it didn't bother me. I felt selfish and such a terrible person for not wanting to wear a pink ribbon everyday. I mean isn't it enough that I have to wear these scars across my chest?  


But you can't see my scars. 


  If you saw me walking down the street...you'd never know.






       ...and I want you to know.






               I want you to know that I survived this awful monster. 





      I want you to know that I never ever ever want this to happen to you.







So this year....I might very well wear my pink ribbon.
                      
                                                     
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       I'll wear it for all those fighting right now.

             and for those who will start their fight tomorrow.

                                     
                
           and if you stop and ask me (whether in person or on this blog)....


             
               I will share everything, in the hopes that you will never wait too long or skip altogether a mammogram 


                                 


                    I REFUSE to cry with the memories.

                      
                     I will not fear it


                      I will NOT let it rob me of anything else.



        Bring on the PINK.....I'm ready.
                       
          

          Here is a video I found Titled "Stuff Breast Cancer Survivors Say"
                
                              Uploaded  to You Tube by:  Cherry Bombs   




Blessings, Joanne