I'm not happy with my weight. I used to be quite skinny. In fact when I got married I weighed 128 pounds, and I am 5'7 1/2" tall. They say when you are happily in love and settled that you gain weight. I thought...gain weight because you're happy? ...not me.
Well folks I must have been deliriously joyful because here I am almost 17 years later and 40+ pounds overweight ( when I write "plus" I mean add another 10 more pounds)
What the heck happened? When I had my little girl I lost the weight and then some.
When I had my Son that's when the fat stuck to me like glue. It hugged me and kept me comfy and warm. It told me that I deserved to have ding dongs and that chips were so thin they couldn't possibly be that bad.
As I gained...My brain told me "you are still skinny"
When I couldn't fit into my old size; my brain said "Those European sizes run really small"
Clothes no longer feel comfortable. Now look, I am NOT one of those women that wear spandex or clothes that are two sizes too small. What I do wear never ever feel comfortable. jeans roll down to expose muffin tops.
Belly at times make me look pregers.
And whats the deal with the flappy arms? notice I wrote flappy NOT flabby....because I have recently noticed some kind of flapping action there. Waving Good bye has now become a controlled motion curtailing the inevitable flapping back and forth of arm flab. In others words...I try to not wave too hard for fear of creating a breeze with said arm flabbidge.
There's more jiggle than a bowl of jello in an earthquake.
This has got to stop people.
I am so tired of feeling this way... and I am so tired of complaining. I'm the cause of all this.
I'm tired of feeling tired.
So I am making a list of things that I want and things that I don't want
1. I don't want to dread getting in a bathing suit
2. I want a flatter tummy so that people don't mistake me for a pregnant woman
3. I don't want to have to wear one of these every time I want to wear a dress
4. I want to dance without all the extra jiggle.
5. I don't want to Look at a large blouse and think it's still too small for me.
6. I want to feel Good again.
So I back at square one and I'm trying again...No fad diets , no Nutrisystem ( can't afford it even if I wanted it anyway)
I'm going to try to do this the old fashioned way........
See that side bar? That is where I will jot down my progress and my failures...hopefully the latter won't occur very often.
I had penne Ala vodka tonight...so I am off to a horrible start.
What's on the menu for breakfast? Hard boiled egg and dry toast. coffee
Will I say goodbye to my faves? No. I will have them not as often and portions will be a lot smaller.
Lots of fruits and veggies will have to be the norm.
Maybe I'll go from being sick and tired to
Feeling Healthy and energetic...time will tell.
So are you sick and tired too?