We were at my Daughter's Lacrosse game when my Son turned to me and asked.
"Mom, if you were on a helicopter and it was about to crash would you reach for the parachute or would you trust that God would save you?"
He repeated the question again. I am used to his "would you rather" questions...like the one " Mom would you rather eat a roach or dive in a pool full of roaches." He smiles when he can gross me out. It's a "boy thing" I think.
But this question was interesting and different. Maybe he got it from Sunday School? I answered honestly. "Well, I know God would probably want me to use the parachute." I smiled feeling my answer was clever. I mean God most probably placed that parachute there just so I could use it right? God places things in our path all the time to help us..
"OK," He added. "What if as the helicopter is about to crash you hear God say "Trust me not the parachute." then what? Would you use the parachute instead anyway?"
"Oh, well if God says to trust him then I have to Trust Him."
He went right back to playing on his ipod and I was left with a wierd feeling. How quickly I would trust Him?
I mean...really the helicopter is crashing and I have a perfectly good life saving parachute at arms reach. God's voice says trust me and I let go of the parachute? I want to say yes, that I would just allow God to take over, But (knowing that I would be unbelievably terrified) I know that several things might happen...first I might question whether or not I was hearing correctly.
"So, let me get this straight...You said that I should NOT put on the parachute?"
Then I might bargain...
"Hey I trust you God , but I'm crashing here, couldn't I just hold onto the parachute for safety's sake just in case?"
"How about I slip one arm in the shoulder strap...that's trusting you ...a bit right?"
Hey this is God we're talking about here! He said to trust him...who am I to say uh uh?! Sometimes we go through horrendous trials and as much as we should trust.... the human fallible side of us beat ourselves up for not having more Trust or we feel that we are alone and forgotten.
Not so. He is always there. Right THERE.
Recently I have heard of some Church members going through horrific situations only to stand straight and praise and trust Him even when the future seems bleak. A light in them shines brightly and they pass it on to others.
That's God my friends.
From the beginning. In Everything. I want to say your will not mine
Do I do that in all situations? I'm ashamed to say not always. I forget and then I revert to that need for control. I feel hurt from a friend or relative that I thought I had forgiven...and then feelings of failure set in. I think that I am super woman and that I can work miracles in my surroundings and then I feel discouraged and annoyed when I find myself in more turmoil. I should know better, God's grace has pulled me up from many tragedies. Time and time again I have witnessed his compassion when I thought I could take no more. He has never abandoned me....and even so I wonder how many times he has asked me to trust and I have chosen not to listen.
I'm learning, and I am humbled by His patience as I stumble and get up again.
Now back to that Helicopter...Will I Trust him?
Yes, I will.